Blogging and Identity Construction

This post has been waiting in my draft folder since May 3rd. WOW. Time to let it out of the darkness, and actually hash out my feelings on this issue.

Originally, this post was begun in response to a program I listened to on NPR. The author of Girls on the Edge was on the program, discussing his book. Basically, this guy is a psychologist who works mainly with pre-teen/teen girls and boys. I still remember the conversation quite vividly, as it really struck a chord with me and things I was already thinking about.

Basically, this guy has been noticing that due to the prevalence of social networking sites like Facebook, Twitter, and the Blogosphere, young girls are developing their identities in an almost entirely public setting. According to him, this is changing culture, self-esteem, and morality in new and interesting ways.

I’m not going to re-hash the entire program; suffice to say, it interested me because of the ways that I work with media for Grand Aspirations. Honestly, it’s something I spend a lot of time thinking about and a lot of time doing: constructing an online identity, whether that identity is mine or that of an organization. Most of the time, this work is strangely fulfilling. I fully understand just how messed up the online community can be, and I’ve been very good at side-stepping disastrous online drama, but something still worries me about online networking.

It’s not that I don’t find it useful. No, the way that I use Facebook and Twitter have been very useful. I have friends in many different corners of the country; it’s nice to be able to check up on people and feel like I know what’s going on. Somewhat. It’s nice to have a blog where I can update people on my thoughts/what’s going on in my life.

I’m not new to the online social networking community. I’ve kept a blog in various forms since 2003 (holy hell that’s a long time ago), I participated in the Harry Potter fanfic community for pretty much the span of time it took to get all of the books published (yeah, I’m a vet), I joined Facebook in 2007, and have been working on building a national media/communications strategy for a start up nonprofit. That’s a lot of experience with social networking. I’d like to hope that perhaps, due to this amount of experience with the internet community, the ways that I use it are intelligent, and not troll-ish.

What I am having a problem with is the inherently narcissistic nature of building an online identity. Twitter is basically like yelling something into a large group of people, Facebook stores pictures, information, and multitudinous status updates, and a quick way to connect with friends. Blogging is weird – it’s like keeping a diary, but I’m ok with people reading it, which is kind of counter to the original idea of a diary anyway.

I’ve been thinking about these things for a long time. It’s time to figure out what all that thinking means. So here you see my list of things that I like about each of these social media outlets, in an attempt to personalize my own internet community experience in a way that makes sense and is healthy.

(That sounded terribly dramatic – I swear it’s not.)



*Keep in touch with friends from around the country
*Friends that are good at taking pictures post them, and I can look at them (I’m awful at uploading my own photos)
*Multiple ways of contacting people – with multiple levels of privacy
*I can control exactly what other people can see using Facebook’s customized privacy settings
*Keep up with events going on where I live, follow causes/businesses I support using Facebook’s pages
*Create my own events and invite people to them – fairly organized system for doing this


*HUGE time sink. I mean really.
*Can lead to stalker-like tendencies, and the following social anxiety they entail
*I find it difficult to weed out what I’m immediately interested in vs. what is on my homepage. I’m sure there’s a way to do this, I just haven’t figured it out yet.
*Spend too much time getting distracted and procrastinating.



*I can follow accounts that aren’t people I know – some of my favs are @BPGlobalPR (sort of Yes Men-like twitter account that is constantly slamming BP) and @feministhulk (yes, it is as awesome as it sounds)
*NOT a huge time sink like facebook. I can just check it and be on my way, rather than getting consistently sidetracked.
*Find out about some concerts, specials, and sales that way
*Good source of news streaming – especially since I follow @mprnewsq and @nprnews
*I can update my Facebook status, the “Running Commentary” section of the blog, and update Twitter all at once
*There are some really good things about twitter that aren’t related to my personal life, but are amazing for organizations


*SO MANY ADS. I mean, it’s because I follow things like @threadless and @Etsy, but sometimes it’s like my feed is full to the brim with ads
*Tweeting feels disingenuous, impersonal, and all-around slimy self-promotion-ish
*It feels like shouting something out to a room of people and not getting any response. What’s the point of tweeting if no one’s following?
*I sometimes feel as if I’m not saying things enough, or the things that I’m saying aren’t important. Don’t want to tweet for the sake of tweeting



*Varying levels of privacy – I can control who reads what. I can even make it just an entry for myself
*More suited to being a diary than wordpress – again, differing layers of privacy
*Friends! “Following” someone on wordpress is different from being on their friendslist on Livejournal
*It’s not about getting people to follow you. There isn’t that imposing “stats” box like on WordPress.
*”Writer’s Block” prompts are sometimes quite interesting and get me thinking.


*My livejournal has been around since 2003. I could use a fresh start.
*I’m in too many stupid communities that I don’t care about. Cleaning that out would be a good idea.



*Can see how many people follow you – and how they got to the blog (much more useful for activism/work than for personal entries)
*The pages, categories, and tags are very good – easy to organize things, clean and streamlined
*Very customizable widgets – not available on Livejournal
*Feels more professional. But that could be because my Livejournal is from 2003. Oh, high school, how scary the archives are …
*See above: less archival baggage


*Lacks a good “friends-list” type of privacy system.
*No friends page. It’s less about who you follow, and more about what you write.

Wow, good thing that’s out of my system for a bit. It feels good to look at these thoughts on “paper.”

But for now, this is a ridiculously long entry.


Bloggin’ away, but nothing personal! What’s up with that?

This week is blessedly less busy than last week was. Granted, I’m still really busy with everything that’s going on, but it feels like a much more positive kind of busy.

A couple of really exciting things have been going down in my activist life! The first being that Grand Aspirations now has a new logo!

This is one of those moments when I get ridiculously proud of myself. Seriously? At 21 years of age I facilitated the graphic design process for a national non-profit and am in the throes of implementing the changes. I’m personally very happy with the logo. You can’t please everyone, but it’s a vast improvement on our old logo – which was done in microsoft paint in 2008 because “Oh shit guys! We really need a logo!”

That was a five-month process. The color changes should be pretty quick after this – I just have to get a workable file from our graphic designer, and the webmaster is all ready to do his magic.

Other really exciting thing: This week marks the official national launch of Summer of Solutions 2010! For me in media, this means that every week I will be featuring 1-2 different local programs in the hopes of gaining applicants for them. In other words: Every week, I get to interview amazing people around the country doing work that I’m passionate about, and help them get media attention. I’ll probably spam y’all with the posts, just because I’m really frickin’ proud of these posts.

The really exciting news? Within 24 hours of that first post about Twin Cities Summer of Solutions at both Solutionaries and It’s Getting Hot in Here, the story was picked up in some amazing places, like The Huffington Post, USA Today’s websiteWiretap MagazineTreehugger, and Tweetmeme.

The Huffington Post article is really cool – they’re featuring other programs that are designed to build youth momentum and train entrepreneurs, and the reference to us is really nice. They link directly to our website, where people can go to apply for different SoS programs. I don’t know how many people will reach that corner of USA Today’s website, but … it’s frickin’ USA Today, so I’m still happy. That’s definitely diversifying our audience.

Get this: None of these media hits were facilitated by me/the media team. It just happened intuitively. Now, let’s see what I can do to keep this momentum going. If people are hunting for our story, we’ve got to find a way to use that.

General feeling of the moment: Ridiculously qualified for any media job in the non-profit sector, without any formal training. Who’s going to get paid someday to do something she loves? OH THAT GIRL WOULD BE ME!

That’s most of the big news from this end. I think I’ve got my living situations for summer/post-India worked out (still, weirdly enough, working on the summer part), which feels nice.

But I’ve gotta run off to class – just thought I should send a quick update about life. I love you all, and I will be BACK more often with updates.

Things that are actually happening in my life

Woah! Major spike in readership! I was just boppin’ through my readomattic, happened to go back to my dashboard, and saw that I had 41 readers yesterday. Holla!

So I guess that warrants a real post, now, doesn’t it?

This week has been really bizarre. Monday was definitely awful. You know those days when really, you shouldn’t have got out of bed? It was that kind of day. For no particular reason, I was just in a bad mood and things weren’t going my way, dammit. It got better, once about 7 o clock rolled around. I realized just how therapeutic cooking is to me. Note to self: Cook more often.

Yesterday was good, but nothing happened as I had expected it to. I expected to go into work at the costume shop and be there from 10-3; I was actually there from 10-12. So I came back home, and got started writing a grant for Summer of Solutions. Plugged through two pages of it (the first is good, the second … not so much.) Then I spontaneously called a friend that I hadn’t seen in a while and we hung out for a good long time.

Mind you, this is all done while I’m fasting – doing a detox to jump-start the diet I’m on. So everything was very surreal and strange due to not actually having normal blood sugar levels.

After it all, I went to see “500 Days of Summer” with my roommate. Thank you, movie industry, for finally depicting someone trying to get over someone else. Also, I really appreciated that movie generally. It would have been much improved if I had normal blood sugar levels, though.

This morning, I woke up, and tried to do yoga, but got too dizzy. So I ate a bowl of cereal, and it took me quite a while to wake up after that. I think today will contain more grant-writing, food (vast improvement upon yesterday, right there), and a date. Yes, a date. This will certainly be interesting – I’ve never really met him before, other than online. But he’s funny, and he’s into backpacking and bicycling, so that’s a thing.

I might also sew some more today. I realized that the dress I cut out isn’t actually one I want to make for myself. So I’ll finish it, try to make it super-professional, and sell it on Etsy. Unless I end up liking it, in some weird coincidence, once it’s made. I’m making it my personal goal to finish this dress before the week is out.

Granted, it should be my goal to get a draft of this grant done and to finish reading Motherless Brooklyn. It would be a good plan to get ahead on my reading for the 21st Century Novel class, because that one will probably be something like a novel of reading for every week and a half. If I could finish one novel a week before semester starts, I’d be ahead three books. But let’s face it: that’s not gonna happen.

Plus, I really want to make a skirt out of an old pair of my jeans! When I went to see my friend yesterday, she was bumming around in the jean skirt she’d made, and … man, I want. Want for real. Especially considering my strange lack of skirts in the closet. (I love skirts and dresses. I wear them constantly.) Plus, sewing challenge! I like projects, if you can’t tell. I’m working about five at once.

Which is why I can’t justify the jean-skirt project until I’ve finished this godforsaken dress. Wish me luck with this one, I may just need it. Or at least, wish me the patience to finish it.